First things first...this happens to be my blog. This is a place where I show my true feelings. Those feelings may not be happy all the time. As a fair warning to the reader, this isn't a pleasant post but I need to express a few things.
I feel out of place.
Not with myself. I know who I am, I know what I stand for, I know what I like/dislike and I know why I'm here. I feel out of place with those around me. Those I thought I knew pretty well. Those who were suppose to have my back and be there for me. Those who are suppose to truly care. I feel like I'm in the middle of who I thought I was friends with and who I really am. I feel like I don't belong.
On another home, I'm homesick like crazy. I miss my family like crazy. I miss California. I miss the dorms from last year. I miss being taken care of.
I've never been one for change. I like the constant, I like the flow of things. And also, at the same time, I don't like contention. I was never one for animosity. It eats me up inside. And when my life isn't going so great, or I have problems with people, I normally don't come right out and say it. I try to talk to other people or remove myself from the problem. But how do I do that when the problem is constantly with me?
I just want to feel included. I want to feel well-liked. I want to feel...not so out of place.
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