Repentant

I love Sundays. I love the feeling I get when I'm at church. I especially love fast Sunday because I feel even closer to the Spirit than the rest of the week.
I woke up this morning and began watching Mormon Messages. I honestly couldn't watch one without crying. That's how bad I needed a Sunday, a break from everyday life and a chance to evaluate my life. I went on to listen to Elder Uchtdorf's talk "Forget Me Not." It's always been a favorite of mine. I especially love this quote:

"You are not forgotten. Wherever you are, whatever your circumstances may be, you are not forgotten. No matter how dark your days may seem, no matter how insignificant you may feel, no matter how overshadowed you think you may be, your Heavenly Father has not forgotten you. In fact, He loves you with an infinite love."

I know with all of my heart that this is true. I know that sometimes I may feel alone but I am never truly alone. Heavenly Father is always with me and his Spirit is too, as long as I follow the commandments and live my life with accordance to the Gospel principles. 

Well, the Sunday School lesson hit home for me today. I went to church looking for answers and boy, did I receive them. I learned today that I need to be less prideful and need to not look for opportunities to find fault in others. I need to quick to forgive and slow to get offended. I realized today at church that I can't blame how others act for my happiness. In reality, I need to find happiness within myself. Even though times are hard, I'm homesick, and I feel stuck in this in between phase of life, I need to find joy within the little things rather than point out all the negatives. If I can be happy, why would I frown? I have SO much to live for and SO much to be happy about.
I'm not promising that I'll be happy every single second of every single day, but I know that even though times can get rough, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. 

In addition, I was asked to read an article from the 2011 Ensign called "Start Moving." It has an awesome meaning, about making decisions and then receiving inspiration from Heavenly Father and I definitely recommend it. 

And, in light of Fast Sunday, I'd like to bear my testimony that I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is the true church on the earth today. There are many other churches that have good within them, but without this true Gospel, you cannot be truly happy. I know that fasting will help receive answers to prayers and you will feel uplifted throughout the month. I know that scriptures and prayers are the way to communicate with my Heavenly Father who cares much for me. I know that the Atonement is a very personal and sacred process in which my sins can be forgiven so I can live with Heavenly Father and Jesus again.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.